skinblade

Been thinking of destruction.
Want to bring it all down on top of me and I can’t
Help but want it all to come down so
It no longer has a presence in my every day life. But still
I long
I love
I fucking want all inside of you
and i know i don’t deserve it but i want your love to and i can’t take this
self betrayal.
Self destruction.
Self immolation.
Barometer of wanton doubt.
Heart and i hate –
with weakness and abated silence.
Terror and savage indifference.
Bring me my last denial
so I can burn it down.
Bring me self indulgence
so I can breathe in hope.
I want to smash it inside you.
I want to destroy your pestilential faith.
I want to infect you all -
stealth in your mouth
with love
but an absence
there of
and you cannot deny it.
I cannot deny it
and you want it inside,
and i want to
kill it before it
breathes.